Nervous..

I'm starting to feel very nervous about the surgery now. It's two weeks away and being the negative thinker I am, I'm worrying about whether it will work for me or not. It has a very high success rate, but there are people that have failed because they don't follow the rules and stretch their pouch or just eat crap. I know that I won't ruin this for myself in THAT way, but I guess the thing that worries me the most is if I get a blockage and vomit and move the band and then its worthless :( (TMI sorry lol)

Emotionally and mentally I think I might struggle a bit. Learning a new way of thinking after being so negative all my life is going to be extremely difficult. I have very low self worth, confidence and esteem. My friend Karl has suggested that I have some hypnotherapy... to target some problem areas and perhaps get that controlled. I've always been a bit partial to believing that sort of thing works, but I guess it's worth a try, so I may look into that a little later down the track.

Dietitian appointment went well. Got my information about how to eat after the surgery. 6 weeks basically on fluids/mush... I'm going to go bonkers! I should hopefully lose a decent amount of weight in that time though. :)