Le sigh. +400gm this week. It's gotta be the fact I havent been drinking water or exercising. It's been SO HARD! gotta kick my ass into gear... I only have 30 to go and I'm over 40 down...


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lost 200gm last week.

yep, that's it.

I've been pretty bad though, so I dunno.... happy I haven't put on, but even though I know it's my own fault, not happy that I'm just staying the same. Bah!

It's got to be too much dairy now. And to think I wasn't getting enough a while back.

Probably the fact most of that dairy is ice cream... (because i struggle during the day with most foods and when i get home I'm like "well i need to have something" and then I have too much of it...i'm only talking like 2 scoops (rather big scoops)... but its the.best.ice.cream.ever.....and probably the highest calories in it too lol

grrrrrrrrr

my own fault....

And again..

Another week of no loss... at least there was no gain.

Kinda shitty about it though. bah!  So close to double digits!!!! 12kg... come the f*** on!

put on

put on 100gms.  not bad for a gain, but I'm not too disappointed seeing as I had such a good loss last week.

Cross fingers next week is better. :)

:O

so... I got this last night...

White gold engagement ring.... :D I got proposed too!

It was really romantic. He took me up into the hills just after sunset with a view of the city as the lights were coming on.  He said lots of lovely things and put the ring on my finger and asked if I would marry him.

I said yes of course! :)

starting to manage better

It's about 4 weeks down I think since my last fill.

I'm starting to be able to handle food better now, so hoping I will be near normal eating again soon.

I've been having to boost my points by going back to whole dairy, etc. That has been working fine, but I'm looking forward to eating MORE and eating HEALTHIER in general.

I got half a chicken and salad sandwhich down for lunch today.

That's the most I've eaten at one time in weeks.  I saved the other half for later, because it was so yummy :)

I'm at a fairly nice restriction, so I'm hoping I will stay like this for a while. I hate getting looser and being so hungry all the time.

Hugs all... xx

nice...

Nice loss this week. Pretty impressed with myself, even though I didn't really do much out of the ordinary except not eat as much - it's been a bit difficult the last week or so. I've been making the most beautiful meals and not eating any of them myself. I think I've cried most of my weight.... "wahhhh i just want the garlic mash mummy pleaseeeee" haha! temper tantrum ahead.

2.5kg down.  Couldn't be happier with that weigh in... I hope I can keep it up... I'm so close to double digits now!!! only 12.1kg's and I will be 99.9!!! WOOHOO!! I cannot even fathom when I was that last... The lightest I remember is in the 120's...

I LOVE MY BAND AND I LOVE WEIGHT WATCHERS!

Hand in hand, they are both the perfect weight loss solution. <3<3<3

Moving again...

1.4kg down this week... finally had a decent loss after 4 weeks.

Happy again :)

Just need to be careful this next week, because last week was badddddd....and some people dont get the results until the week after... so hoping I'm not turning into one of those...

extra exercise is a must this week!!!

:(

really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really bad week this week.

really bad.

:(

Every day I have eaten over my allocated points.

Not really much food in general, but just the wrong foods.

It's so easy to pick the wrong things.

Doesn't help that I've been a bit down in the dumps this week.

I don't know if I want to go to WW tonight.  I'm scared :(

I hate this.

Menu

I didn't lose or put on last week.

Not much news in the way of the band, but I did want to share a menu I have written up for when my Mum and her Partner arrive (they are currently on an around Aus trip, due here on Friday!)

Friday

Surf & Turf:  Baby Potato Rosemary Skewers, Steamed Spring Vegetables, Herbed Steak, Garlic Prawn Skewers with home made Garlic Sauce

Saturday

Apple Pork Cutlets: Baked Potato, Steamed Broccolini with Herb Butter, Roast Honey Mustard Pumpkin, Pork Cutlets stewed with Apple and Cashews

Sunday

BBQ: Sausages, Chicken Kebabs with Vegetables, Steak, Grilled Corn with Garlic Peri Peri Butter, Grilled Balsamic Onions & Mushrooms, Potato Salad, Bean Salad, Coleslaw & Green Salad

Monday

Lamb Rack: Red Cabbage with Cream & Mustard, Rice Salad, Balsamic glazed Carrots & Baby Onions, Crusted Roasted Lamb Rack w/ Thyme and Sage Gravy

Tuesday

Cazza Burgers: Fresh Crusty Toasted Garlic Rolls, burger patties, with Aioli, Hash Brown, Coleslaw, Onion, Cheese, Tomato, Lettuce and Ranch

Wednesday

Lamb Shanks: Herbed Potato Mash, Steamed Greens with Herb Butter, Golden Mustard Herbed Slow Cooked Lamb Shanks

Thursday

Dinner out

Friday

Roast Chicken:  Thyme and Garlic Roast Vegetables, Garlic or Moroccan Mushrooms, Corn Cob with Garlic Butter, Mixed Steamed Veggies, Thyme and Sage Gravy with Roast Chicken

Saturday

Mexican Burritos: Toasted Wholemeal Tortilla with Seasoned Beef and Beans, Lime and Coriander Rice, Guacamole, Taco Sauce, Ranch home made Salsa, Cheese and Lettuce

Sunday

Butter Chicken: Boiled Basmati Rice and Butter Chicken served with home made Garlic Naan Bread

Lunch Ideas if we are home

Cob Loaf filled with anything and everything

Chicken Strip Wraps

Jaffles

Sushi Sandwiches (they just look like sushi :P)

Mixed Sandwhiches

Quiche and Salad

Zucchini Slice and Salad

I obviously won't be eating hardly any of this menu, purely because I struggle with quite a lot at the moment... but I'll try a bit of each and every thing there is written down.  

The no loss of last week has really hit a nerve.... not a good one... I'm having a terrible week with food. I'm just a bit down in the dumps...  

Don't take your tablets at night if you're really tight...

I've been having odd painful feelings for a while now... like food goes through majority of the time, but not smoothly... feels like it grips on it's way down... i feel kind of dry.

Well, I'm pretty sure I've figured out what it is... taking my tablets so close to bed time.  They somehow must sit around the opening and stick to it or something because I'm laying on my side and not sitting or standing so there is no liquid for it to digest in... I even tried taking them an hour before bed last night and today so far has been horrible.  So I think it's move it to midday or similar.

I took my tablets before lunch today, so if I feel better tonight and feel fine in the morning then that will be a definite yes. I'm already 98% sure that's what it is, but it can't hurt to test it out, right?

Anyway... just a short one today... Don't feel myself

UGHHHHHHHHHHH

500gm down this week.

I'm going to try and make an extra effort this week to eat MORE food and better quality food to get my points up. I'm always having low days and because I need to fill my points, I eat bad stuff at the end of the day, otherwise I wouldn't have had enough.

I started this morning by making porridge... nice effort, but didn't go down.
I then opened a small tin of baked beans; they went down OK.
Home made pasta for lunch: Cabonara with a twist... Penne, Ham, Sauce made with Cream/Eggs... garlic, mustard (wholegrain and dijon) coriander, mixed herbs, salt and a Mediterranean Blend spice squeeze thingy...  turned out SO yummy... but this is taking so damn long to eat... I just get so SICK of chewing... Back on the liquid diet I would have been dying to chew... it's funny how when we go to extremes either way we get fed up easily, yet if we were in the exact opposite position, we would be as equally fed up...

Just a thought.

My WW leader re-set my goals last night to my 25% and 30% goals because I'm "doing so well". If only she knew how discouraged I've been feeling the last few days. I got home and had a cry last night and thought it's about time to up my tabs a bit.  My doctor always prescribed me as 1-2 tablets once a day and I've always gone just the 1. After the way I felt last night I upped to 1 1/2, so I'm hoping that will make me feel a bit better. I need to keep myself out of the hole because if I get into it again then I will make this journey a lot harder for myself than it should be.  Stupid brain, why can't you just be happy! >:[

I feel like I've become a little socially retarded since moving here. Don't get me wrong, I can socialise perfectly well, but as much as I really want to socialise MORE, I equally as much don't want to... I have met two really nice girls at weight watchers and would love to be-friend them more, but I always feel like I'd be a pain in the ass or a nuisance to them.  They have already organised a birthday dinner out because I found out I have the same birthday as one of them, and the other has invited me to a demonstration party thing which was nice... She has even said to go around there if I wanted to... but ERGH. I just feel like I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.

I think it's going to be harder from now on in

400gm loss this week.  Bit down about it, but could be due to not eating enough.  Trying my best to eat more this week, had a very low day the other day because I was really tight and even threw up my water at one stage, the next day I had a bit more than I should have hoping that will level out a bit.

Going for a walk tonight, will try and get in another before Thursday.  I need to get back on track with my walking, been a bit slack lately.

:)

900gm loss this week. Happy with that :)

:( tmi AGAIN

Oh man....

The last couple of hours I've been bundling brochures and grouping them for a mail out.  I got back inside and was hungry and my friend at work had left me half a jam donut (as much as I didn't want it at the time, it was staring me in the face when I got back inside, and being so hungry, well, we all make mistakes)

I took my time knowing that things like pastries/cakes/donuts etc are very hard for a bander to get down.

Boy did I underestimate THAT piece of information.

I have pb'd plenty, but usually it's quiet and fairly tame and pleasant compared to an actual vomit (of which I haven't technically had for years)... But I think this could have been in the vomit category, except PB style (and by that I mean, no stomach acid because it didn't reach my stomach)

The first couple of ....heaves? lol  were ok. Normal....then the pit of my stomach cramped up like "Oh! So you're wanting to vomit, let me help you a little! I'll push, you heave!"

I then felt as if the bottom half of my stomach was going to go through my band inside-out and come through my mouth... If you could put that in the same category, then it's definitely a different experience to what vomiting was like before banding.

I.Never.Want.To.Do.That.Again

I can handle PB'ing. It's just a normal part of banding. There are always days you mess up or days you are tighter than usual. But this was hell. And caused by my stupid judgement of food choice!  I wish this person would stop "sharing" and giving me crap food!!!!!!!!!

:(

Weigh in tonight, probably update later or tomorrow....

Lap Band, Oh Lap Band...

Why do you hate me one day and love me the next?

Yesterday was hell for me, you little shit! I couldn't eat a thing and I could barely manage liquids...

Today I've downed a smoothie, some pasta salad with mash and chicken (left overs from last night that I couldnt eat) and some delicious cheesecake that my friend got for me... (only a little though, very rich!)

Did I do something to offend you? Did I hurt your feelings and now you forgive me? Whyyyy are you such an ass! lol

Oh well, thanks for making me feel good today. Glad I wasn't at work yesterday.

No Love, (well maybe a little bit.... )
Caz.

(ok ok, lots of love... but don't get cocky!)

Can't eat my favourite thing :(

I discovered an awesome meal a few weeks ago; Salsa's Chicken & Vegetable Rice Bowl. I've only had it once before and it lasted me 3 meals. At the time I was eating fairly normally, so the fact it lasted so long was a surprise - albeit a good one.

I got it today, because I was hell craving it. It's just fully awesomeness...! I had a couple of bites and it got stuck.  Off to the loo for a spew I go... It's now sitting in the fridge waiting to go home... For another attempt... and another... and another... and another... I won't be able to resist it and there is no way in hell I could watch Aaron eat it without a tear.  I think it's either the rice or the skin on the tomato.... or it could be the broccoli... or the onion.... meh. It's probably the whole fricken damn thing :(  This sucks.

I think my last fill I was considering getting some taken out, wasn't I? I should read back and see how long it took to settle down. Man, I have some hard weeks coming up. If I can't even eat vegetables, how the hell am I supposed to eat anything else? I can eat junk food just fine. chocolate melts... ice cream melts.... chips are hard and seperate nicely..... meh.  I don't want to eat crackers or crispbread for weeks.

There is such ups... and such downs... Looks like I won't be eating out with friends at work for a while either.  Not that it's too often I suppose.

End rant??

Not quite yet.

I'm feeling an awful lot of nausea this time. Haven't had that before. I'm still feeling like I have that odd pouchy thing happening where food/drink gets puddled there.... and then I just feel yucky. Not sure what it is, but I don't like it.... and this feeling of puddling is horrible.  Maybe I did do something to my band :(

hhhhhhoooolllllyyyyyycccrraaaappppppppp

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they are omg faces by the way.... =O

2.9 lost this WEEK! what the helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll........... I started off so bad... yes, I did have three days of major low points days because of my fill, but I did NOT expect THAT!

And guess whaaaaaaaaat?????

Not only did I have an awesome loss of 2.9kg

....I made it into the teens.... completely skipped 19 and 18, 117 baby yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

ANDDDDD I crossed my half way point.....OOOOOMMMMMMGGGGGGGG.......

so so so so so so so so so so so so happpyyyyyyyyyyexcitedddddcrazyyyyyyywooohooooo

over analyzing

Here I was thinking I had done something to my band yesterday...

It felt a bit funny after I had a couple of crackers...

The rest of the afternoon I felt like I had a odd pouch bit that was puddling liquid and not going down... if that makes sense...

This morning while drinking water, I didn't notice a lot of gurgling... I had a coffee as well and didn't notice any gurgling (after two days of MEGA gurgling I was a tad worried)

For a brief time I thought perhaps I had slipped.. or done damage or SOMETHING.....

Until I had 4 little bites of lasagne and its just sitting there... not stuck... not uncomfortable... just sitting there... playing games with me.... telling me I am full... like a good little band-pouch should...  What a tease! Last week I could have scoffed this lasagne... That's how loose I was.... but now.... my beautiful friend Lacky... (hehehe, get it? Lacky band!)  is here to support me and allow me to eat small and feel big!

I love you, Lacky.
:)

I weight in at WW tonight. With 4 days WAY over, and 3 days way under.. I wonder how I will do.  Is it going to make me stall going from such heights to such depths? Or will it even out alright?

I'm hoping for the latter...

Kind of excited to see :)

PS: hiiiccccuuupppppppppppp

.....hhhhhhiccup....hhhic.....cup....

Erggghhhhhh.... Struggling BIG TIME.

I just had two small spoons of porridge and I'm hiccuping like mad.... I'm really struggling to get this down. I wonder what else I could try that would be easier, coz I'm a bit hungry...  so glad I'm not starving mad like last week, but still hungry because I just can't eat!

I'll leave it for about a week and see how I go.  I can get down very small amounts of food, but I am just getting sick of the wait between mouthfuls.  No stuckage yet, but I'm waiting for it to happen any day now....

Struggling

I've had the worst migraine over the last couple of days.

It started off as only a dull headache, but I worked myself up so much the other night, it turned rather quickly...

I had an appointment for a fill on Monday arvo at 4. I got to St John of God Hosputal right on time, found a park and headed up to the specialist rooms only to be told that they've moved somewhere else. I was a bit pissy that I didnt get told so on my way down to my car I called Aaron. I paid for my ticket, went and got in my car and finished on my phone. I then started up my sat nav, went to get my ticket ready for exit and realised I had no idea where it had gone. Panic mode set in and i started to stress out. I went back upstairs and explained what happened and the lady there called security for me. Finally i had another ticket to get out so i started heading to the new place... Then i got lost :(
Eventually found where i had to go, grabbed a park and then the damn ticket machine was broken! I started looking for another, but ended up chucking a tantrum and just went inside.

My dietician said i have a Vitamin D & B12 deficiency plus my cholesterol has gone up a bit. Afterwards i had an appointment with a different doctor for a fill. Only 0.5ml went in but hell, it's fricken tight... I can barely even get runny porridge down!

Hoping it will sort itself out over the next few days, because I definitely can't stay this tight I don't think... at least i'm not eating my shirt anymore i guess lol

Not deserving...a little tmi again sorry

I lost 1kg this week, however I definitely didn't deserve it... Last week I deserved it, and I put on 700g... but that being said, I was a bit consto...

I think I lost the consto weight, plus 300gm... I've just had a shitty feeling week overall, so I guess bad choices usually come with feeling bad.

Back on track though.

I always feel a lot more hungry in the mornings than the afternoons; So to try and combat that this morning, I had toast at 8am and around 10.30am I had my porridge. Normally I would have one or the other and then a snack for mid morning... but I thought to myself.. It's probably better using the snack points on having both of those rather than one.... keeps me fuller for longer and its better for me than what I would normally snack on.

It got me through until lunch time and then I had 1/4 of a Salsa's chicken and veg bowl (which is absolute heaven at 3pts for 1/4 bowl which was plenty enough... and even if you wanted half, 6pts is reasonable for lunch!)

In other news (:P) I have two weeks left in my WW tracker journal and I was told last night that they aren't making anymore 2010 journals.... what the? It's only August and they have already decided that they aren't going to do another print run... There is still over 4 fricken months! I can't even find one online... so peeved off... I need my tracker journal or I'll definitely screw up.

I don't know how well it will go, but I tried scanning in some blank pages and making my own version... I binded it with the binder at work... and although its a pretty crappy rip off, it might do the trick. I'll see how I go. Just irritated that it's not an original you know?  As stupid as that sounds, I'm a little anal when it comes to things like that... I sometimes feel as if I have some sick and twisted form of OCD. Like, if I don't have an authentic journal then I will fail and put all my weight back on.. Obsessive much??

Had a shocker of a headache for the last few days... can't seem to budge it. That along with girly cramps = death. Wish I wasn't at work today... I took Tuesday off, feel heaps better... but I don't want to be here today either lol.

Anyway, enough for now. Hope everyone out there in band land is going well. Hugs!

This gain is really getting me down.. I think because it's so close to the last one I had... I think I only lost twice and then gained?? I dunno... I definitely think I need a fill because I am STARVING most of the time now.

I really should change some more of my foods, I think... *shrug*

It's definitely not easy to keep up this momentum, especially when everyone else around you eats and drinks shit all the time. I just can't seem to get away from it.

tmi.... sorry

Do NOT read if you don't wanna hear about consto.. lol

Definitely starting to struggle again... I just asked to go to the chemist at 10am on a friday morning because I'm scared that I'll get the consto pains like last time... they gave me grief for days...

I also got a softner, so I hope that it won't hurt my insides :( I'd like to get through this with minimal pain if possible..

I suppose that could be a reason why I didn't lose this week... afterall last time was Wednesday... so yesterday I had a couple of days in there.... :\

:(

700 on this week.... I hope I don't start this up and down crap..... can't stand it.

I did drink all my water before my meeting though and I think I'm a bit consto....and I'm due... tmi

sooo... next week will tell I suppose....

Yes? No? Dust.

1.2kg loss this week. I am only 900gm off the teens..... mannnnnnnnn feels like its ages away... just hoping that I can lose again next week.  I must have done something right this week, but I don't know what... luck of the draw I suppose... just keep doing what I'm doing and hope that the losses keep coming...

Just a quick update :)

to be expected...

No Loss this week.

No Gain either.

Bad a bad day with sweet stuff the other day, but tried to rectify that with 3 days of being good and being under my points.  Glad I didn't gain, but it would have been nice to at least lose 100gm. Oh well, I suppose that's bound to start happening now I'm getting lower.

I do have to say though that I have been absolutely starving at work the past few weeks. I think it's mostly boredom hunger, but still, it's horrible. I get aching pains because I'm so hungry!

I am pretty close back to being able to eat whatever, if I take my time. So perhaps I will get a fill next month when I am booked in.  I just hope I can get some more losing happening before then.  At least I will feel a bit better about things if I can still lose while not relying so much on the band.

Anyways.... Still a blasted 2.1kg away from the teens.... come on!

back it up sista...

1.2kg lost this week. Not too bad I must say.

For some reason after lunch yesterday afternoon I started getting a little pain in my gutt... and last night it turned into a full on stabbing pain... today it's the same but moving down... so I think I'm a tad backed up... TMI sorry lol

The painters will be in today or tomorrow and generally around that time I do get backed up a bit, but it's usually when I've already started... I had to get out the powder this morning to have with my morning cuppa in hopes that I can get some more water going through to soften me up a bit.  Hurts like hell... I even have my heat pack at work.

Hoping for a quiet night in tonight but it's possible we will get given a couple of tickets to see a movie... wouldn't mind the movie to much, but hoping in turn that doesnt mean we have to catch up with the other people going and do dinner or drinks or both.... not feeling very social at all today.

I'm craving sweet things big time.. I've had 3 little choccies and a shortbread biscuit.... still in good points range as I had a small breakfast and lunch... so I should be OK if we can have a normal dinner.

I wanna lay down :( stupid work

No longer MO!

I stumbled across one of those graphs yesterday, which show you what category you fall under using your height and weight as a guide.

I was so shocked to see that I am no longer in the Morbidly Obese category.... I can't remember when I WASN'T in that category! I'm still Obese... but no more Morbid.... holy crap how awesome is that?? :)

i'm baaaaaaaaaaaack

:D

1.1kg down this week. Pretty sure it could have been more, but I didn't use all my points before weigh in.

I saved about 34 in total and only used 10-15 of the saved ones... I was told that you can only save points if you plan to use them on the weekend, otherwise your body gets in a rut and will stop losing.

So I got home and had dessert last nite, just a little funtime cone... but with the bestest yummiest ice cream.... cookies and cream connoisseur mmmmmmmmmmm --that used about 8 pts, and I ended up with 12.5 left at the end of the week. Not bad :)

So I'm hoping if I can keep it up this week as well and make sure I use my points that I save, I will keep on going down.

I am now 2.3kg off the teenies.... OHHMYGAWDijustcannotremembereverbeingthatloweveromgomg.

hmm

Each day is different for me... The rest of the spring roll went down OK today (yes, I'm a glutton for punishment trying that again lol)

But I was still hungry and it was sitting there looking at me after I ate my chicky wing... lol

Did you guys know that you can get your fill bills back on medicare?? Here I was thinking I had to pay $180 dollars for a fill and that was it... but I just found out I can get about $110 back from medicare!  I only just ran out of finance on my account for appointments, so now I won't be so worried about it when August comes if I need another fill.... I can deal with paying $70, but not $180 with no rebate... ugh

I just read Bec's list of foods she can't eat and I noticed she had noted down raisin toast.

Does anyone else struggle with that?

I'm pretty darn tight, but I have raisin toast every morning with no problems....?

That being said, I've always been a cold toast eater.. so I toast mine to a dark brown and leave it in the toaster until it's cold and hard... then I butter it and put jam on it... always crunchy and doesn't clog up...perhaps thats why I do well with it.

People have always thought I'm odd because I'd rather cold toast than hot toast.. I like hot toast as well, but I prefer it cold.

chickidy china...

chickidy china... the chinese chicken..... had a spring roll that got stuck and pain and owie and damnit!!!! whyyyyyyyyyyy meeeeeeeeeeeee D:

Today I decided to be a little naughty at lunch and bought chinese.  In the fridge at work is a home made eggy, ham, tomato and lettuce mountain bread wrap i made this morning... but I just didn't feel like it when it came to lunch time.

I went out planning to buy another bowl to add to a set of mine, in case I broke one.... didn't get the bowl unfortunately, but I did get yummy smelling chinese.... part of which, was a teeny spring roll i put in the bottom of the container (self serve)

well golly gee gosh... I've had spring rolls before since being banded... but not since my last fill..... WHAT THE FREAKIN HELL; THE DEVIL MADE THIS SPRING ROLL...

all was going down fine (all, being my first two or three bites) and then I chose to bite that damn spring roll.

Haven't done the dash for the dunnies yet, but it's painful and hurty and owie :(

bec, kill me lol

so far, so good

I briefly mentioned in a comment on my last post about my last couple of days....

So far, I'm going good... I'm trying a kind of 'quick start' again, which should work pretty well considering my last week was very high... so my body should have a bit of a 'wtf' moment----------hopefulllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....

Thursday I did 20.5pts and a walk worth about 1.5 (only small because I had my bf's Mum with me)
Friday I did 21.5pts and walked around the shopping centre at lunch. I only put this down as 1.5
So far today I've done about 16 and haven't had dinner yet. Had a big shop session this morning and wrote it down as 1.5, but could easily have been 2 or 2.5 Expecting about 3 or 4 pts for dinner and I'm having a glass of agrum, so that might be another 1pt if I finish it.

I must admit I'm not going great on the water today, but I don't genereally do well with it on the weekends...

I'm watching the AFL at my bf's brothers place and it's an eagles vs collingwood match. Their team against mine.  I'm also having a roast dinner cooked for me (for once!) so looking forward to it and it smells great :)

Go pies! :)

Onward bound :)

Well.. the inevetable happened.

I put on.

Luckily it was only 300g. But still, 17 weeks of losses and now a gain.... crap!

Lucky for me it's motivated me to do better this week. Now the next hurdle is plateu... please please please... no plateu's...

Guess what?  No dessert last night.... yay! Yes, obviously I missed the sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet taste of something so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.... but... I was proud of myself, because it allowed me to earn some points.  I also went for a 20min walk, so there is a little bit on top of that also.  I wanted to go longer, but I had my bf's Mum with me and she can't walk far.  It was also getting quite dark so we decided to go the shorter route...

Does anyone know about the WW quick start rules?  when I first started and was on 27pts, my leader made me do I week of quick start which was 25pts and then back up to 27 again...  Is it just taking off 2 points?  So like... if I did a week of 23, would that work the same way??

Perhaps some miricle person will find this blog and answer my question... or perhaps not. *shrug*

I really wasn't surprised that I put on this week. It was pretty bad.... I did expect to put on last week... 1.5 loss WAS a surprise... 300g gain.. not so much.

blorg...

I guess I shouldn't be worried if I did have a gain... it would be the first one in 17 weeks and I'm sure that it wouldn't be much... (can you tell I can't get this off my damn mind???)

I guess the thought of putting on scares me now... I went through such a struggle in the beginning with all my complications (before and after surgery) and to be over 35kg down already is such a blessing.

I went onto the yahoo aus forums the other day and there was one bloke who had his surgery the same month as me (Oct 09) and he had already lost 63kg and was at goal.... wtf??? I know Men lose weight A LOT quicker than us girlies... but 63 kg in 9 months is crazy!

I dunno... I suppose after my initial loss of 15kg with pre-op and liquid/mushies the extra 20kg in 5-6 months is pretty good.... 18kg of those in the last 17 weeks (3-4months?) thanks to WW and tracking though.. so I suppose that's pretty good.

Rambling sorry..

I just caaaaaaaan't get this out of my heaaaaaaaadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd....

Continuing on from my last comment on my last post... my food intake for the last week has been SO good, once again up until desert time... even including the milo's I've managed to be around the 18-20pt mark after my afternoon tea and generally my dinner is only 4-5pts (I have 25 a day atm).... so then I have my meal... and generally sit around 22-25pts... and then I have something fucking stupid for desert.. lol just kill me now!  I did soooooooooooooo well for a few months after my surgery, not wanting desert... actually could leave a tub of ice cream in the freezer for weeks and not touch it... but i dunno... the last month or so it's every night (and mostly thanks to my bf who loves his desert)....(when i dont care, he wants it, when he doesn't care, i want it... thus usually every night lol)

siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh ok... i should get back to work.

Nana's

I don't know if it's just me, or banders in general... but does anyone feel as if eating a banana is quite difficult and time consuming?

I've been avoiding fruits for a while now, because a  lot of them do the same thing to me, but I find that Banana is the most difficult, alongside Melon and Mango's...

I can chew it until it's runny mush, but as it's going down, it practically forces itself through the band and I feel uncomfortable with every bite. Obviously it's going to go down because it's so slimey, but it's always an uncomfortable feeling as if it's getting squished through??

Haven't had the best week with points this week, and haven't really had the opportunity to exercise extra like last week.. soooo cross fingers I've lost something!

It's the hot Milo that does it to me... 2.5pts per cup and I have about 2 or 3 a day... because my circulation sucks and a warm drink helps (and I don't like tea or coffee!)

Actual food consumption is good.. it's just the darn milo... :(

Salt.... is the devil

Well.. my plan seemed to pay off.

Even though my points for last week were very much over what they should be... my change in diet in general for the week plus the extra exercise paid off.

I lost 1.5kg.

I definitely must have been retaining water because of the salt the week before.... man... I had so much. argh.

This last week I have incorporated more fruit, more veg and rather than snacks such as vege chips or an LCM bar, I've had better alternatives that also keep me fuller for longer.  Such as a crispbread with ham, cheese, sundried tomatoes and marinated mushrooms.... so good and much better than a cereal bar or chips.

So I'm at roughly...35 down from my highest at the moment... 18 in total since I started WW (in 16 weeks) an average loss of 1.2kg a week.

I am keen to see my Mum in September when she gets here (she is currently doing around Aus trip with her H2B) and if I can keep up the average then I should be lighter then she has seen me in a good 10 or MORE years.... since high school probably.

Crazy....  I put it all down to tracking!

Okay.. so it's time to slap me on the wrist...

I went on a mission to reduce my salt intake this week and eat better foods... I got fruits, reduced salt stuff... have stayed away from the salt shaker and have taken decent wholesome foods to work as snacks... none of this le snack, vege chips and LCM bars crap...

I do so well until after dinner time... and then I crave something sweet... and for some reason the last few days when I've gone to do the desert thing... I've chosen the wrong things... because they are just there.... and like... did you know that those little snack apple pie things are like 6.5 points???? OMG it killed me! Even with sugar free ice cream!

I went for a long walk with Bella the other day and I'm going for a walk tonight.. and planning to go for another walk tomorrow night... as well as saving points from today and tomorrow in hopes that I can gain about 10-12 points back for my week (4 each day from less foods and 1.5-2pts per day from exercise)

Soooo....cross my fingers that I can at least lose 100g coz at least that will mean that I haven't put on.... I don't want a downward spiral to start... and I'm not the strongest person when it comes to my emotional side of weight loss.

So, wish me luck...

And I've noticed that people are coming to my blog and not following... is it because I'm naughty?  Or am I just boring as bat shit? :)

Salt...salt....soooooo effin good....

After a loss of 500g this week, I think I need to massivly reduce my salt in-take.

I know I can do better.

Anything above 500g I'd be happy with. I'm still happy... but I'm sure there are steps I can take to improve it.

Last week I had massive amounts of salt.

Mash a few times. With Salt.
several Cup-a-Soups ....saltyyyyy
Kiev... I'm sure lots of salt in that...
Le Snaks... surprisingly high in Salt...
1/2 a cheeseburger....(at 1 am driving home from a party where I ate minimal chippies) um. salt?
fish... floured.... yep, I added salt.
chicken nuggets... salt.
chippolata (mini sausage)... salt....
baked potato... with reduced salt butter (and yep, LOTS OF SALT hahahaha)
chinese.... so has to be plenty of salt in that...

Ok, so not great food choices... but keep in mind my portions were really tiny...

So... I have been writing a list of stuff to get at the supermarket that I can buy to try and reduce my salt in-take. Hopefully this will help me get a better loss next week.  Although, as long as I keep on moving down I'll be happy. As soon as I stall or put on I will be sooooooooo angry/sad/mad/emotional.

I'll soon be a teenager again...

I'm so close to the teens I can smell it.

I can't even remember the last time my second number was a one.

I DEFINITELY can't remember the last time I was double digits... but that's still a little far away yet... but I'll be able to smell that soon.

The teens.... wow... Just the thought of it is making me giddy.  I remember being in the 120's, but just.... ugh... the teens!!!!!!!!! englkjeanbkjeanbkjsandbkjnafbabg

700g down last week.... weigh in again tomorrow.

My week has been OK I suppose. I had a really low day last Thursday, almost fell off my graph it was so low... but I've tried to even it out in hopes that I might get that 'lacky band' effect where it kicks my metabolism a bit.

Either it will go good or bad.... or OK.

I can deal with OK. ;D

1.5kg the week before last and 1.1kg last thursday for my losses since my last update.

I seriously can't believe how well this is all working out for me now that I am using WW as a steady ground.

Since writing down everything I eat, I have found it equally as easy to eat to many points as it is to not eat enough points... having a number to follow every day is making sure I eat enough on the days I don't want much, and making sure I don't over eat on crappy stuff on the days where I could easily have too much.

I seriously urge anyone out there that may be struggling with a lapband to consider using the WW points as a base.  I definitely couldn't do this without the band, but the points factor is definitely keeping my weight going down.

It's all about "knowing" :)

Not only did I lose a whopping 2kg last week.

I reached 30kg loss AND broke into the 20's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!

What a happy week for me :)

do not want

Ergh... so tight. Struggling :(

Ergh

I had my fill, now it's time to get used to being so tight again. I like it, however it's also frustrating when you're STARVING and just want to eat!  The good thing about it is that you eat little and you are over it in no time. Sweet!

The doctor that saw me was very impressed with how much I've lost since October. He seemed crazy impressed actually and I don't know whether he was just putting it on to make me feel good.  Feeling good went out the window when he used the needle to search for my port and then slipped over the edge and the needle got pushed down in me with brute force.. second time lucky (lucky for him, that is, I was ready to punch him...lol)

The dietitian said I need to eat more fruit.  Yes, it's barely non existent at the moment and apples make me hungry so I stay away from those.  Might have to get some bananas or something. I love mango's...om nom nom but I'm scared that some will slip past my tongue and will cause me grief.

I couldn't be arsed cooking last night (I was only going to make mash for myself and something else for my bf) but we went and bought chinese instead.  I had about a spoon full of rice over an hour.  Pretty disasterous considering I was so hungry.

I had porridge for breakfast this morning as it's nice and soft...struggled a little with my tablet this morning, but it went down ok after about 5 minutes aaaaaaaaand dinner time tonight I should be back to normal food, but I'll take it easy for a while as I'm pretty sure I'll struggle with red meat for a while.

First 24 hours is careful for me after a fill because I swell pretty bad, I've noticed.

I'm actually enjoying the tight feeling again. I've had two pieces of ravioli so far for lunch and I'm getting the slow-going-down feeling that I enjoy. The way I was before this fill, although I could still only eat about a cup, I could definitely eat faster and finish my meal pretty quickly. I'd always pace myself, just by telling myself to do so.. but obviously not as fast as you HAVE to do when you're feeling quite tight.

Anyway, I forgot to mention that I lost 900g last week.  Weight in again in two nights time. I'm not too good with updating this thing on time at the moment, because we just moved house. But at least I haven't stopped altogether :)

Decisions decisions

I am currently in for a checkup every 6-8 weeks with my doctor. I have an appointment with the Surgeon and my Dietitian this afternoon.

I have been sitting here thinking for the last 4 hours whether I should or shouldn't get a fill.

My reasons why I shouldn't.
I am currently at an average of 900gms to 1kg loss each week.
I am still PB'ing some things when I eat too fast
I can basically eat anything where I am at right now as long as I take my time and chew properly.
Owie pains lol

My reasons why I should.
I can basically eat anything where I am at right now. Meaning, I AM eating basically anything.
I am starting to eat faster because things are going down easier.
I started a new medication a week and a half ago and I am constantly hungry.
My portion sizes are getting slightly higher because food isn't in my pouch as long.
Although I've lost an average of 900g - 1kg each week, the first few weeks were higher and the last few weeks have been lower.
It will be about 8 weeks until I get the chance to go for a fill again.

It's a 60/40 and I suppose the whole reason I got the band was to have the restriction. Sooooo after writing those few points down, I think I will get one and hope that I dont die in the process. My last fill was a disaster with 0.5 and I ended up having to go back in after hours to get it taken back out again.  I'm hoping that 0.5 this time won't end up in me being so tight I can't swallow my own saliva.

That was a horrendous experience.

Thoughts and Ramblings

Okay... so... my doctor has put me back on anti depressants. (don't ask).

One of the side effects I've read is that it promotes weight gain.

I started the tablets yesterday, but I am so so so worried that this will make things so very difficult for me now :(

I need the tablets for, if anything, anxiety. I don't know whether you would so much call it depression, but I definitely have a problem with anxiety.  I have been so super emotional for ages now and I always feel as if I am holding my feelings in my chest. The drop of a pin would make me cry, or get angry, irritated, murder spree material.

It doesn't help that there are certain people at work who I would like to stab with a fork to the eye. Seriously. Rude, selfish girls on a power trip that they don't have the authority to have. Think "their shit don't stink". It seriously just infuriates me.  And what have I done to them to deserve their attitudes and horribleness?? Nothing! I can not think of one thing I have done to either of them for them to warrant treating me like a piece of crap.  I just don't understand people.

Anyway. I lost 600g last week. I suppose that's a plus, innit?

Turning Point

I've crossed the turning point, but I don't know when.

I just turned down a free strawberry thickshake from McDonalds.

That was one of my favourite things! Every time I got Maccas, I would substitute the soft drink for a strawberry thickshake.

I didn't even hesitate turning it down either. Straight out "no thank you :)"

I am a legend, lol.

In other news, last week I lost 1.5kg. Happy! :)

Small loss, but a loss none the less

I weighed in last night and lost 400g. I was fairly disappointed at first, but a loss is a loss so why am I disappointed? If I had put on I'd be devestated, so why am I complaining??

I have been filling out a graph for the last 6 weeks of my points and have found that every week except this week I had 2 days OVER my points allowance and on other days made those totals up. This week I went over ONCE and the rest of the days were quite low... could it be another case of  "I didn't eat enough"?

I don't know whether I want to test the theory by having a very high day followed by a really low day and the rest of the week just general (funnily enough that would almost be something like the wendie plan). I guess I'm scared to test it because if I put on weight I will be so upset :(

I bought a couple of tops yesterday, a new longish cardigan and two new bra's. It's amazing how good new clothes can make you feel. Pity about my attitude today, so grumpy!

:)

Hello,

I didn't update last Thursday, but I was another 1.5kg down last week.

I am tracking along nicely, but I am concerned that this week I might pay for some bad decisions.

We went out for dinner last night, and I chose wisely. A piece of fish and mashed potato. I had half of the fish fillet and about 1/2 cup of the mashed potato... and some cucumber which was with the salad on the side. Oh, and another note.. my first PB on an outing! I was a little excited, but shitty at the same time! All good, nothing to bad :)

Dessert was a disaster... I was craving Mcdonalds soft serve so badly! We decided that it's OK to be naughty once in a while, as long as you don't do it every week! So I got an Oreo McFlurry with caramel topping... it was actually quite sickly and I wouldn't get it again, but the ice cream was so good :)

That being said, my day was so good that I didn't go over my points even though dessert was bad.

I guess maybe I'm just being paranoid? If I stick to my points I should still lose... *cross fingers*

Anywho... My pants are officially on their way out. I keep having to hitch them up.. and I can't keep doing it at work or I will get caught... That would be so embarrasing...

I will be going to the shops on Thursday to buy some in a smaller size, but I will probably just get some cheapies if I can find some. I don't want to go wasting money buying new clothes at good shops because if things keep going well then I will just grow out of them in a few months anyway. I tried opshops, but no luck yet. Maybe when I get under an 18 I will have more luck.

Aaron is off to China Wednesday night, so I have 5 days to myself.  There is a public holiday on Monday, so 3 of those days I will be off work. Might have to go and do some more op shopping!

;)

keep on going...

Another 1kg off this week.... sweet!

Hopefully I can keep this rate up... I really hate when you get into grams etc... 1kg will do me nicely, thanks... :)

A decent update

I've been going pretty well the last couple of weeks. I had a moment there for a while where I thought that this was going to be a big failure for me. I've been down and out for a while, not really motivated... I'm still not quite back to normal... but it usually takes me a while to bring myself back up after spells like this.

I weighed in again last Thursday (very quickly, didn't stay for the meeting) and have lost another 1.2kg. Very happy. I wanted to stay for the meeting, but we were going camping at the break of dawn the next morning and I still had to go and do a few hours worth of shopping and packing.


I have been a good girl over easter. Had one or two mini solid eggs last week and over the 4 day break I only had half a Charlie the Easter Chick! (the small one)

How cute are they!

Besides that and the two chocolate mini eggs, I didn't eat much in the way of junk food. A couple of potato chips here and there, maybe a handful in total? Not even half a handful of salted cashews, a few jatz crackers with some dip and half a meat pie (I got rushed and couldnt make the breakfast I had organised, and all that was open was a stinking bakery... bah!) So I did pretty well, considering last year Easter was an excuse to eat bad and drink too much. Oh! And speaking of drink, I only had one alcoholic drink while I was away... ONE... last year? Don't even ask lol.

I really am surprised I did so well, chocolate is definitely a weakness for me... but because I write down everything I eat, every day... it's always on my mind.  You always eat more when you don't write it down.  Never believed it until I realised it myself by doing it myself.

Back in the swing of things now, it's pretty overcast and snuggly here today so I pulled out a porridge sachet from the cupboard and had that for breakfast. Creamy Honey flavour from Uncle Toby's.. yum.

Hope you all went OK over the long weekend.

Another loss...

1.6kg down this week. Woohoo!

Just a quick update today... so tired. Bah.

Band & WW ;) I think this is the way to go

Well... 2.1kg down this week (4kg since my last fill)... Very happy with myself...

I thank both the band AND WW for this loss.

The band keeps my portion sizes under control meaning I can relax a bit with choosing what to eat.. Obviously I watch what I eat anyways, but for example, the other night I wanted satay noodles BAD... so I got them. I could only eat between 1/4 and 1/3 of the box, so instead of 17 points for the whole box (i know, i shat myself when I read it -i could have eaten the whole thing in one sitting before my band!!!) it ended up only being 5.5 points and I was MORE than satisfied.

WW is giving me a good guide on how much I should be eating. I'm fairly certain weight loss for me has been slow the last month because I haven't been eating enough and my body has freaked out a bit...  another example to show that is I lost 2kg in 3 weeks with the band alone and 2kg in one week by eating a bit more and watching it like a hawk.

I've worked out that some days I would probably eat barely anything, and not even get anywhere near the amount of 'points' I should be eating... and other days, just by bad choices... I could blow them out the window.. especially when I have a drink!! I've gone off fizzy mixed alcoholic drinks (turkey and dry, yum!) so now I usually have a mudshake or 2 or 3.... but at 6 points EACH I only have one now.... thats a lot of points...

Keeping a journal of what I eat each day has helped me immensely. I never really thought to try it, even though so many people have said it's worth it. Now I think it's something I will do for the rest of my journey... it's scary how many calories can creep in when you're not looking.

Anyway.. there ya go.. another week down...

wendie is a shit stirrer...

Bec has written on her blog about the Wendie plan; Which is a variation of Weight Watchers that a lass named Wendie made up.

I've always been meaning to try weight watchers, but after so many other attempts at different things never bothered. Although I probably should have tried it before going ahead with my surgery.

So... I'm going to be a copy cat from Ballarat and copy what Bec is doing. I started this morning... SO MUCH FOOD wtfffffffffffff......D: if I want my Super High Day (SHD) to be on Saturday, that means today I need to eat 33pts worth of food. It's. Just. So. Much.

It can't be good, can it? I mean, the band is supposed to make you eat barely anything.... why on earth am I now forcing down more than I want? And I mean, it's a lot....  So far today I've had 1 banana, 1 hot chocolate, a le snack, tomato cucumber ham and cheese salad with home made balsamic dressing, a small calci-yum strawberry milk and one chicken strip. That's only 23.5 points... I have 9 left for afternoon/dinner... so I suppose if I can muster up a 6 or 7 point dinner then I only need to have one more 2pt serve of something... how the frig am I supposed to do the SHD??? THATS 43 pointssssssssssss gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... The only way I can think of stomaching that much food is to eat bad high point stuff... not to mention the fact I doubt I will use any extra allocated points (35 per week).

The chicken strip I had today I ate because I knew it would shop off about 6 points... which it did. I have another in the fridge for tomorrow. I know it's not a good choice... but I mean... how the hell can I eat like... two sandwhiches or a billion pieces of fruit, or a thousand good foods to make up that many points... it's never endinggggggggggggggggggggg.......

I will curse very loudly if this doesnt work :( bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh stupid weight loss, stupid...

Curisity killed the.......Lapband Patient lol

Just realised I haven' t updated since my last entry, so I probably should do that.

9.30pm the same night of my last post, I ended up calling my doctor after hours to meet her at the hospital so she could take out half of the last fill she put in.. So instead of having 1ml extra, I have 0.5ml extra.

(tmi) Basically my saliva wasn't even going down, let alone water or food. I ended in horrendous pain, bringing up the saliva I've swalled every 20mins or so because it was completely shut.. the pressure was unbearable.

had 0.5ml taken out - Instant relief! The next day was even better.

I have been wondering if she took out more, but she did show me the syringe... and well, I guess I was more focused on the pain I was having rather than looking.. but that's only because I've felt like I am looser than I was before my second fill.

That being said.. the last two or so days, I've kind of tuned in and realised that I'm feeling a different feeling. Not getting food stuck more, but just all food I eat is going down soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo slowly. 

It's great, don't get me wrong.. but it's just so hard to adjust to.

Aaron took me out for dinner last night. First restaurant meal since my first fills - I barely ate any of it. I felt horrible, because he splashed bought me a lobster! First time I've tried it... and not only did I not particularly like it (just not my thing) I barely ate any of it, and it was so darn expensive! Lucky it wasn't massive, although I did ask beforehand whether something could be taken home).  He finished half of it off for me, and the rest just stayed there after I was done (so I had half a tail?)  ......thenihadicecreambutthatsnaughtyandishouldntreallytellyoubutididpleasedonttsktskmeeeeeeeee. :D

When I mean I'm hardly eating anything.. I mean hardly ANYTHING! No way near a cup, like they say you should have (max).. I'm talking like... 1/4 of a cup, sometimes if I'm REALLY lucky, maybe 1/3 of a cup. Depends what type of food it is as well. Pasta type foods I can eat a bit more of, then again it depends if I'm doing something at the same time (like lunch break at work I read websites etc). The more distracted I get, the more I eat, because I settle and then go back, settle and then go back.. whereas if I concentrate on my food.. once I get THAT feeling, I usually pick a little and then stop.

Rambling, sorry!

I haven't had the guts to get on the scales yet. 1 week since the fill/weigh in.. I'm thinking maybe I should wait until I see my surgeon next in 1 month until I weigh in again.. but I don't know if I can hold off that long. I'm pessimistic as all hell, but I'm just so curious!

D:

extremely disappointed

Turns out it was all a lie... in fact, not only have I not lost weight. I've put on 1kg since I had my first fill... WTF?  This is absolute bs... I'm so upset :(

I just got another 1ml in my band... I can barely swallow water.. I'm hoping the swelling or whatever will calm down in the next few days and I'll be able to get down a normal size meal.  I had a couple of bites of some salad at lunch and a piece of meat got stuck :( now I'm paying for it...

Anyway... w/e... *shrug*

Sigh

It's a constant effing battle... Even just the emotional side of this whole thing is enough to wear a person out.

My weigh in showed no change last week... after my scales at home blatantly lied to me and gave me a different reading every time I stepped on (6kg difference from one to another!), I confirmed it when I went to the chemist to weigh in at a Tony Ferguson location. I was exactly the same as the week before. Not only was this disappointing, but it makes me feel that perhaps my last few weigh ins weren't correct, and perhaps I haven't lost as much as I think I have.... :(

I am d.y.i.n.g to have another fill. As crazy as that sounds for those out there that know the feeling you get when you stuff up.... I just...don't feel like I'm in the right place... and my weigh in proves that.

I'm going to be insanely tight I think... but I hope I can at least get maybe 1 or 2mls in the band and after a couple of days it should settle and I should be able to eat the way I was eating after my last fill when I thought I was at my perfect spot. I /thought/ I lost 5kg in my first week... but perhaps that was all a lie and I was kidding myself.... or at least my scales were kidding me.

I just feel so miserable, I just wish I could have the correct numbers AT HOME, without having someone breath down my neck and asking me how my week went and if I drank enough water and drill me about my food choices etc. 

Blah.

cross fingers

Not feeling flash today...


In the back of my mind I have this worry that maybe I haven't lost anything this week.


I feel as if... just like anything else I've ever tried, I'll lose a bit, then stop losing... and probably put back on again.


I'm due for a doctors appointment on the 18th and I will get a top up fill and hope that it makes me feel a bit better.  I'm not as tight as I was 3 weeks ago, so I know I can still go a little more... so hopefully that will sort me out.


Weigh in tomorrow morning, so we'll see then whether I've lost anything. Cross fingers it's something decent ._.

*does a dance*

I've lost 20kg so far!!! :)

My jeans fit me again!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D

Things are going well and I'm feeling much better now.

I'm not struggling as much to get down food, but I do know that if I'm not careful then I definitely will get stuck. It's been a few days now since I got something stuck, so I'm fairly relieved... it's so freakin painful. I guess most of it is time to adjust to the new style of chewing. It takes a while, but once its a habit, you don't notice as much.... I'm not thinking about it as much as I originally had to... my tongue uses it's brain instead... not letting me swallow unless something is small enough and seperating anything that might not get down... like a piece of potato skin or the funky bits in a prawn.... lol

When I weighed in on Thursday I was a total of 16.5kg down than my highest weight. Thought it's time to try on some clothes that I just grew out of. My jeans fit again :) I'm wearing them today. I tried them on before my surgery and not only did I have to squeeze my thighs into them, I had to really squeeze my stomach in to do up the button. Today the button was fine and I have some space in the thigh section to move around... they don't feel like they have been painted on :)

I'm comfortable where I am now in regards to a fill, so after the next three weeks if I feel like I'm looser than I am now, then I will probably get a top off... otherwise if I feel like I am now in 3 weeks time, I will cancel my appointment and re-schedule for another months time.

Here is my first comparison... doesn't look much different... in fact, I think the side on picture my tummy looks bigger?? Unless I was sucking in for the camera the first time round.... which I may have done without knowing... Some back fat has gone and some of my rolls have decreased a little...

 

 

First Band Fill, First Loss

Just over 5kg loss in my first fill week :D

Hair Style

When I get to my goal weight, this is how I want to change my hair. :)

stuck you say??

This first fill is taking some getting used to. I think because right off the bat I’m really tight is making my adjustment a bit more hardcore than if I had to have 2 or 3 fills before I got the level of restriction I’m at now.

Friday and Saturday I struggled, not just with food, but with the time it takes to eat the food. Half way through my already small portion, I get so sick of eating I start getting frustrated and started giving food to the dog lol. Most of Friday and Saturday things were getting stuck. Sunday morning my toast got stuck, but the rest of the day I coped fine (besides the time thing). Had a sausage some onion and a piece of rye bread for lunch and dinner was a small portion of roast lamb and some veggies.

So far this morning I’ve had a piece of toast and a smoothie which I shared with Aaron. Should be right from now on I hope.

Once I know I'm good with most foods, I'll be easing into TF again most likely. I've always done better with low carby stuff :)

So damn tight..

Yesterday was a struggle.

I knew I was pretty damn tight, but I didn’t realise how tight I was.

My lunch went down okay… chewed really well and it was a weight watchers cottage pie meal anyway, so just mince, veg and potato + saucyness.

Started to swell up later in the afternoon, water was still going down, just sitting for a bit before going down.

About 4.30 I had a corn thing with vegemite and it got a lil stuck, but went through.

Dinner was a disaster. We were out for a little after work so on the way home we got pasta, I changed my order to spaghetti from fettuccini because it would be easier to chew. First bite got stuck and I paid hell for it. PB’d to no end, sliming like a mad woman, eventually had to go a bit deeper and a stupid piece of spaghetti about 1cm long and 2mm thick had gotten stuck. ALL THAT PAIN FOR THAT STUPID LITTLE PIECE?? D:

Water struggled to get down so I tried a bit of ice cream. That just sat there and wouldn’t go down either so that came up. Frustrated as all hell by this point I cracked the shits and went to bed.

Today is OK though. Rice bubbles went down this morning and just had a coffee which went down a treat. Now.. to try this pasta for lunch again ._.

to fill or not to fill....

Good news is that about a week before I went on holidays, the infection cleared up and the wound closed up. Since then I haven’t had any problems regarding the infection.

Since the first night I got out of hospital the second time around after the 4 days of IV anti biotics, I’ve been getting pains after eating (not every meal, but majority). I need to have tests, but I’m 99% certain that I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) which has been linked to long periods of anti biotic or steroid use. Also the fact bowel disease and IBS runs in my family, means that I had a higher chance than most of getting it. Obviously I’m not 100% sure yet, but the symptoms are there, the area of pain is the same as my Mum’s (she’s had Crohn’s coupled with IBS for 30-40 years now so as soon as I pointed where the pain is she’s like “oh no….that’s the what-you-ma-call-it where I get my pain!”.

Anyway, that aside, I went for my first test/checkup/(fill) this morning, and although it would take a while for erosion of the band to happen (I thought this morning was going to be a ‘either it works or it doesn’t’ moment) this morning went well and I got 7ml out of 12ml put in. I have the gargle sound back lol.

Haven’t tried a meal yet, but water and coffee is going down OK, after the gurgle that is… so the next test is solids. Wish me luck anyway :) GOOD LUCK!!!!