It's a constant effing battle... Even just the emotional side of this whole thing is enough to wear a person out.
My weigh in showed no change last week... after my scales at home blatantly lied to me and gave me a different reading every time I stepped on (6kg difference from one to another!), I confirmed it when I went to the chemist to weigh in at a Tony Ferguson location. I was exactly the same as the week before. Not only was this disappointing, but it makes me feel that perhaps my last few weigh ins weren't correct, and perhaps I haven't lost as much as I think I have.... :(
I am d.y.i.n.g to have another fill. As crazy as that sounds for those out there that know the feeling you get when you stuff up.... I just...don't feel like I'm in the right place... and my weigh in proves that.
I'm going to be insanely tight I think... but I hope I can at least get maybe 1 or 2mls in the band and after a couple of days it should settle and I should be able to eat the way I was eating after my last fill when I thought I was at my perfect spot. I /thought/ I lost 5kg in my first week... but perhaps that was all a lie and I was kidding myself.... or at least my scales were kidding me.
I just feel so miserable, I just wish I could have the correct numbers AT HOME, without having someone breath down my neck and asking me how my week went and if I drank enough water and drill me about my food choices etc.
Blah.
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Hello, sorry I haven't been on in like ages. Oh grrrrrrr at those silly scales. I wish I could throw mine out, as every time I go past they tell me to step on. I swear it plays games with me. slows down and stops at a number and I think, oh wow that is great, and then it ticks over again to the real weight. Darn thing it is. I am addicted to loosing weight, but if only I was really good at it. Hoping you are going great guns now
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