500gm down this week.
I'm going to try and make an extra effort this week to eat MORE food and better quality food to get my points up. I'm always having low days and because I need to fill my points, I eat bad stuff at the end of the day, otherwise I wouldn't have had enough.
I started this morning by making porridge... nice effort, but didn't go down.
I then opened a small tin of baked beans; they went down OK.
Home made pasta for lunch: Cabonara with a twist... Penne, Ham, Sauce made with Cream/Eggs... garlic, mustard (wholegrain and dijon) coriander, mixed herbs, salt and a Mediterranean Blend spice squeeze thingy... turned out SO yummy... but this is taking so damn long to eat... I just get so SICK of chewing... Back on the liquid diet I would have been dying to chew... it's funny how when we go to extremes either way we get fed up easily, yet if we were in the exact opposite position, we would be as equally fed up...
Just a thought.
My WW leader re-set my goals last night to my 25% and 30% goals because I'm "doing so well". If only she knew how discouraged I've been feeling the last few days. I got home and had a cry last night and thought it's about time to up my tabs a bit. My doctor always prescribed me as 1-2 tablets once a day and I've always gone just the 1. After the way I felt last night I upped to 1 1/2, so I'm hoping that will make me feel a bit better. I need to keep myself out of the hole because if I get into it again then I will make this journey a lot harder for myself than it should be. Stupid brain, why can't you just be happy! >:[
I feel like I've become a little socially retarded since moving here. Don't get me wrong, I can socialise perfectly well, but as much as I really want to socialise MORE, I equally as much don't want to... I have met two really nice girls at weight watchers and would love to be-friend them more, but I always feel like I'd be a pain in the ass or a nuisance to them. They have already organised a birthday dinner out because I found out I have the same birthday as one of them, and the other has invited me to a demonstration party thing which was nice... She has even said to go around there if I wanted to... but ERGH. I just feel like I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
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I so understand. I keep saying I wish you were in melbourne as you and I have so much in common. Where you talking about anti'deps? I am sposed to take 1 a day, but half the time I forget (due to this band)i really got to start taking them properly including my multi. I try and take them in the avo, but I find that I usually forget to, as I am more worried about getting the girls fed, changed, etc I don't think about my own needs. I also understand about wanting to socialise and feel that you will just be a nusiance. OMG are you sure you aren't like a relative of me or something LOL. If they didn't want you to be a friend, they wouldn't invite you in the first place. I try and tell myself that! *big hugs*
ReplyDeleteYep, was talking about AD's... I was on a different type before surgery which weren't as good, and after surgery I eventually had to go back on a new one that is a lot smaller, but actually works a lot better... not as moody! lol
ReplyDeleteI am really bad and haven't been taking my multi vitamin.... I have a liquid one which I mix in with juice and can't taste it... but I am just not in the mood for juice.. and I am worried that I try it with something else that I WILL taste it.. because it smells bad and if I could taste what I smell then I would probably not keep it down.
I know that if they didn't want me I wouldn't be invited, but you know what it's like when you're actually in the moment... these people have all these friends around and you're this new person that doesn't know any of them and just feel like you wouldn't fit in... as much as you probably would?? I just don't have the balls anymore!
I think we are related! haha
hugs! x